wads with my luck recently? i guess i am so down in my luck. thats why bad things keep happening to me. hais. i am so so tired of everything. tired of being involved in relationships. tired of everything thats happening to me. am i cursed or wad? oh fuck.

i dun even noe if i am doing the right thing. but whether its right or wrong, it has been done already. i should be happy.. but why am i not? have i really done the right thing? i noe that i am asking him to do sth that will eventually hurt me.. but i guess it doesn matter anymore. nothing ever matters anymore.. i noe i am stupid. yeah i am.

he is so beautiful, a beautiful disaster that happened to me.